Memory Problems

I'm sure I've got memory problems I can't remember what my Dad told me saturday about today because I normally meet him in a pub down town about 6pm but on saturday he said "Now I'm on the sick, I can see you early on thursdays" and I can't remember if he said that he'll see me at an earlier time today. I'm sure if he did I would of put it in my calendar on my phone for future reference. But knowing me maybe I forgot to note it in, just have to wait and see if he turns up at 6pm.

Suicide

Suicide is a nasty way of dying because you leave a note saying bye to everyone but what they don't realise they'll be missed by freinds and family and by doing what they did makes them feel guilty on why they didn't do nothing on their scream for help and they wonder if they could of done something. Well a freind of mine is thinking of commiting suicide I really hope they don't because I find the person amazing but lately she's been down and I just want her to cheer up and enjoy life but you can't make someone do that so I'll just hope she don't get round to doing it and figure out all her problems and her freinds will have some more sense to stick by her and help her through this rough patch in her life because that's all she needs right now is support and I can't be there for her when she's so far away, all I can do is sit back and watch her life get sabutaged by friends ignoring her scream for help, times like this is when you know life for some people sucks enough to want to end it. Basically I just want it to be all talk and no action.

I know this isn't a nice topic to blog about but it happens in so many ways every day it could be a loved one, a friend even family just be there for someone when you know they need you it's a good deed, try and talk them round it can make all the difference.

I Haven't Blogged Much Lately

So let's update you with what's happening... The bet is still on and I got 20 odd days to get on my mates sister Jo it's going to be hard because she's 19 and I think she hates me because Jordan and the boys have been spreading roumers about me that are bad. So basically it's a challenge because she doesn't live with my mate anymore and I don't know what days she works and her brother is always up hafod so I can't really hit on her infront of him so that's a problem.

I've took down my other blog because blogger are gettin tough on people who have music up for grabs on it so I deleted it. Sorry to the one follower that was following it.

That's practically what's happened lately in my stupid life. Hoping to be writing more often.

I Desperatly Need New Mates!

Well over the last 8 years I've been bothering with the same people and they're into different things to me and the only connection between us all is that we're all funny and like comedies. Basically I feel like an outsider with them and all my mates are under 18 so going to the pub with them is out of question. I always used to do things for them but when it comes to me they say no, it's like "do you want to come to a gig with us go on it'll be fun" and I say "yeah go on then" even though I hate the music they listen to, I do it because they get to spend some time with a friend now if I asked them to see a gig with my music god it's an uproar so I'd go on my own most of the time. I'm into indie rock and they're into heavy metal so it's a bit of a difference but atleast I don't listen to R'n'b or any of the shit that goes into the mainstream.

There's alot of disconnections between us, for instance the music, games, scene and fashion. These are just the mates I bother with all the time, I've got lots more mates but from a different area so I have to travel to see them and half the time it's not bad because I get a rest from the original freinds and see new faces, i'm currently thinking of just bothering with people from a different area. That's my rant for today!

I Think The Bet's Over

Well last night Jordan asked me a stupid question "are you going to pay me?" and I said "no" I didn't mention the explaination and the explaination would of been because I'm not going to lose the bet. Well instead he just said "well thank god you told me now because I could of been depending on it in December" so he obviously thought he was going to win and he just stood there unimpressed with me but still he refused to ask why so why should I explain myself to him for no reason. So I think through that he aint going to anticipate in the bet, his loss not mine.